I don't know what you're going through, and I'm not going to pretend that I do. We all have our trials and tribulations, and if you haven't yet, I can promise you that you will. Some might be more exhausting and pressing than others, but they are all real and they all hurt. I so wish instead of you just reading these words off of a screen, that I could be there with you to talk, pray, and cry through whatever it is with you. Since I can't, I want to be as authentic as I possibly can in this post.
So I want to start out by saying that you are not wrong in being exhausted, tired, and burnt-out by carrying the weight of whatever it is you are dealing with. We were never created to carry that burden. Jesus will carry it for us if we let Him. However, that means letting it go and handing over control to him. The truth is, handing control over can hurt. I think sometimes Christians make it sound like "give it to Jesus and it is all good." Their heart is in the right place, but it takes a long time of leaning on God and learning to trust to get to that point. To be honest, I'm not completely at that point yet, either. I give it to God, but that is something I have had to do day after day when I have taken control back from God because I worried, and didn't surrender it all the way. Even when I knew that God was all-good and all-powerful and not trusting Him was completely ridiculous, it's still hard, and He knows it's hard. That is because we are human, and we don't see what He sees. Letting go means letting go of the problem, means letting go of the outcome and putting it completely in His hands.
I know what it feels like to be scared of letting something go out of your control. Surrendering that thing, whatever it is, to God, and saying "God, I give this situation to you, because you are the God Almighty, and you are in control of it all." While it is going to be hard, there is something I can assure you, God is good. I can always promise you that. He is not out to destroy you or to just make this life hard for you to watch you suffer. He has a purpose, and it is a good one. Hang on to that promise with all your might. Sometimes, that's all that's going to get you through it. You will not always understand. That's also something I want to touch on. So easily, we can get discouraged when we don't understand. That's because many of us have grown up hearing "You might not understand why God is doing what he's doing." We accept that, but we unknowingly give it a time limit. We're okay with not knowing for a week, for a month, maybe even a year. But when it becomes years of not knowing, and seeming like nothing is changing, that's when you really need to cling to the promise.
One of my favorite worship lyrics is from "King of My Heart" and goes "when the night is holding onto me, you are holding on." Click this link to listen to the song. Every time I hear those words, it just speaks to my soul. As Christians, we know that God never promised an easy life. We still have to fight through this life, but God is always holding on. When we are in the middle of the seemingly most hopeless situations, have courage in knowing that God is holding on. He knows the situation, he knows the most minute details, and He knows how it is all going to work out. Believe, me I know the pain of knowing that we might not know how it works out for years. The truth is when we hold on to the hope that we will know someday why things happen, and one day God will work it out. It could mean tomorrow, next month, or it could be in 50 years. I don't say that to discourage you or to limit God's power. I say that because it is true, and because we can't try to guess God's plan and purpose for whatever you are going through. So take heart, and know that whatever you are going through, God is holding on to you.